I totally feel you! But now you will learn to celebrate what you over looked in the past. You now get to celebrate doing what were "small" things like showering or brushing your teeth and find it's hard to be depressed when you are celebrating the seemingly small things. (people don't look at you like you sprouted multiple heads if you celebrate to yourself) You're kidding me. You aren't celebrating the day that comes once per year that you're suppose to celebrate and can with other people. I think you're great, now it's your turn. Of course I haven't celebrated my b-day since I was 21 (don't ask but I shouldn't be in jail) but you do and still will see you should.